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I have been Monterey Park for a week. I miss Fullerton, miss my room, miss my school, especially miss my friends. In this week, I come the library of Monterey Park everyday. Now I am also here. It is so cold. (American air-condition is so perfect - never closed.) Of course, library is a place which people study, but I never study, just getting on the Internet. Actully, I can get on the Internet at home, but I do not want to stay at home even for a while. You must ask me why. I know why, but I do not want to speak out. If the library is opening for 24 hours a day, I will stay from morning to next morning, but it is impossible.Translating one sentence of my hometown, it is that being a person is difficult, being a good person is more difficult. I know there is nothing easily to do in the world. No one can help me to solve my problems except by myself. How I hope I can escape from reality, but I can't. Although I am not in school in these days, I also have much pressure.I am worried about eveything. I always ask myself that if I have another chance, whether I came Amereica or not, but I don't have answer. There are too many things made me confused. I am confused of everything. Never mind, I am tired now. I hope I can buck up as soon as possible. This is my situation now. Ok, it is enough. Fighting!!~~~

Missing You

I have finished my study in Cal State Fullerton. Now, I am in Montery Park, my uncle's house. Actully, I do not want to come back. I know this is not the best decisionfor me, but I have no choice. I am very sad in these days.
I do not know why, maybe there are too many things make me sad. I moved out Fullerton which I was familiar with just now. I also have some friends there, whatever, I like you guys. I will miss you. Thanks for your helps, gifts and everything. Thanks you!

Journal#11

When I was in China, my English teacher told me that writing is the most difficult part in learning English. At that time, I did not agree my teacher, but now I realized it. A good paragragh or eassy should have a perfect structure, grammar and the vocabulary words. It is difficult to combine these points together. In this semester, I learned how to write an outline. Acturelly, I never wrote an outline before I wrote an eassy. Through the study of the compositon class, I realized writing an outline is very important. Not only is it easy to get some good ideas, but also saving the time. I also learned when writing something, I should write a topic sentence and in this topic sentence should have a controlling idea, attitude and feelings. And the teacher said that when we had timed writing, we did better than writing something no time limited, because in timed writing, we do not have enough time to think the sentence in our own language, and then translate into English. If we want to do better in writing, we must think in English. Through the study in the class, I have changed some wrong habits in writing. I think these changes have been proved in my paragraghs or eassies. I also believe that I can do better than before in the future.

Journal#10

Studying in America is the most important decision in my life. At the beginning, I felt fresh to living in a foreign country. It could give me a different feeling around my life. I believed that this decision is right. I was very proud of myself to come America, but now I am very tired. Sometimes I can not concentrate my thinking to study. And studying in American university is different from in my country. There are much homework, tests and presentations. I need study hard and do some research on presentations. Sometimes, I could even not finish my homeworke. I do not know how to study efficiently. I do no tknow. I feel that I do not have enough energies to do these such things. I am exhausted. In America, I have no family. I do everything by myself. I need to consider every little single things. I do not want to talk with my parents and do not want them to know how upset I am now. I do not want them to worry about me. I am missing my family, missing my friends and everything in my home. In these days, I am very worried about my future. I do not know what I want to study and what kind og job I can do. Acturelly, I do not have any confidence to face my future. I am confused of my abilities. I could not find any advantages of myself. I do not know what is the most accurate way for me. I am never negative like this. I have many pressures now. I do not know how to release them.

Journal#9

Disneyland is amusaing place for people. It is impreesed to me deeply. I like the environment and the excited games, and they make me remember my childhood. Except these games, there is the most significiant thingin Disneyland is the parade. This is also my most favorite thing. It began in the everning, and there were also lots of people waiting for it. There are children, and also have adults. Everyone was excited. I can see the happiness on their faces. I also took out my camera and prepared for shooting the gorgerous moment. At this time, the parade was starting. The first coming was the Mickey. It is absolutely beautiful. It made me remember when I was a child, my feeling of seeing this carton. It is so sweet. And then, there were many famous roles in fairytales coming into my eyes. I was very enjoyed this moment. It gave me a lot of memories, and let me see the world most beautiful performence.